I for one truly love You

i’m tired of your sob stories
and you feeling sorry for yourself
because of his rejection

i’m tired of seeing you
putting in much effort
to be with him yet
he doesn’t care enough for you

you have to stop this
and accept the reality,
move on with your life
for you deserve to be happy
with someone that truly loves you

i for one truly love you,
and you know this absolute truth
but it’s all up to you…
take the wheel and enjoy the ride

~ @ John Acéx

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Lust

Lust
The preacher calls it sin
The good book demonizes it
My parent’s upright morals
bringing up wouldn’t let me lust
That looking at you
And adoring your beauty sexually
Would reserve me a seat
In the eternal flames of hell
That staring at your marvellous
sculpted pillar of admiration
would drift me away from
The path of light

But every time I look at you
Im afraid that I can’t help myself
But to fall deep in lust
Every time you walk through the door
As you serene the room silent
I keep throwing stares
Watching you from afar
Trying hard to flirt with eye contact
But failing in courage to approach you
And afirm the vibe you give me
Everyone stays amazed at your glow
Like you’re a fallen angel
A perfect work of art
With extreme seduction

And I hope you look my way
Long enough to notice my crush on you
I hope you look my way
Lon enough to find me appreciate
God’s perfect creation of you
Yes, I can’t help myself but fall deep in lust
I’m unable to fight this feeling
Ready to go against all I’ve been taught
against my lust for you
Ready to tread into the path of darkness
with this fruit of admiration
I hope you look my way long enough
Though I know you won’t notice me

~ © John Acéx

Death Medley

I am afraid
I can feel the darkness creeping in
Sending chills down my spine
and I’m cornered with a dread divine
Hoping that in you a solution I’ll find

I am afraid of death
Yes, dying and the whole idea
of being gone forever.
On many occasions I coffee my time
All through the night
Engaging in nothing of chief importance
but just to control the fear
that if I lay down to sleep
I may not rise to see the sun’s rays again.
Sometimes I give in to the sleep
though I ensure I set at least two hours
intervaled alarms to keep me awake
To keep myself alive
until I adore yet another dawn.

I am afraid of death
Of the fact that I’ll leave
Those in my circle broken and sad
Of the enemies I might have made
who’ll cheat to mourn
but take pride in my departing.
I am afraid
That eventually I’ll be forgotten
and simply just be a fragment
of a long lost memory

I am afraid of love
I am afraid of opening my heart
to another soul and let them be a part of me
My thoughts are racing every minute
vividly reminding me
that each love story I played as character
Always paced along the same edge
of uncertainty of the future
and eventual tripping and falling
Drowning in the lake of remorse
I’ve had a bad history
in every attempt I made at falling in love,
None of them didn’t inscribe a scar
Each leaving me more damaged than before.
The more my heart gets broken
the more I feel my soul being lost
in the tormenting darkness
Haunted by all the failed expectations
and unfulfilled promises

I am afraid of love,
I am afraid that I’m getting close to you
at a fast elevating rate,
I am afraid that I might actually
be falling in love with you.
I don’t want to lose you
I don’t want to let go of what we have
but I fear that this might just be the
same recurring nightmare of self-pain.

I pray for a long content life
and dream of a true genuine love,
but I am clouded with fear
because of the anxiety of the future
and demons of my past that are bound
to catch up with me one day
and set me captive when I least expect it.

I hope the love we share
won’t die but write our eternity instead
I hope we won’t face death
before we enjoy the love we’re scripting

~ © John Acéx

I’ll wait for You

I am looking for the one
I’ve been looking for the one
One who’ll understand me
and accept the real me
One who won’t need me to change
Who’ll take the original me
without any necessary edits
That will adore my glow
and still appreciate my flaw

I am looking for the one
Who will understand my pain
Join me in my darkest corner
and try lighting up my world
Who will hold my hand
Through all the struggles
and join me in my battles
One who will cloud my lonely
and warm me up with company
That will cuff up our wrists
and stay with me in the fire
One who’ll heal my wounds
and scar her own body l
By taking the punches for me

I am looking for the one
One who’ll die to save me
Ready to sacrifice themselves
So I may see another tomorrow
More concerned of a smile on my visage
Even if it’s crooked
Than see a tear roll down my cheeks
One who’ll break the rules
just to be by my side
One who’ll deny all rumours spread
and preach the truth about me
One who’ll defy all odds
Break all chains and stumbles
Just to be mine
Who’ll stay even when it gets hard

I am looking for the one
One who’ll wait for me when I leave
That’ll never lose the patience
and still see the essence in loyalty
One who’ll run to the desert
and find me in whatever dust storm
One who’ll recognize me in the dark
Just by the touch of my hand
or rather by my rate of breathing
Who’ll master the pace of my footsteps
and recognize them at any time
Even without the simple sound of my voice

I am looking for the one
One who’ll understand my stories
Without any need of elaboration
Who will know all my poems by heart
And live every reality in my fantasy
That will value my love for the art
and make every piece theirs
I am looking for the one
Who’ll read this wherever they are
and quickly fathom it’s about them
One who’ll appreciate it as it is
and not conclude any sense of selfishness
As many will definitely do
One that’ll be ready to be mine
To love, to hold and to cherish
I’ve been looking for you
I’ll wait for you

~ John Acéx

The Dogma of our Love

Every second I’ve lived, before knowing you
Was not really living at all
But merely the ticking of a clock
Before time began, our time

You are the wind, You carried me so high
I saw all the world glistening below
But wind must weave with other wisps
And leaves across numberless cities & seas
What can I do but linger a while in this sinking
Thankful for her touch
And the way you made me come alive

We, of all people in the world
Deserve our love
I will wait for your breath
On my face
How long? As long as it takes

Coz we break the rules
And follow our heart

When I say I adore you and cherish you
What I mean is…
I will do anything, to give you everything
I found completeness in you
In the brush of your lips
And your near beating heart
And your breath on my chest
And your hold of me close, closer

Sink with me into still waters
Where whispers willow over reedy shallows
We pour the ripples rinsing icy fractals
Let’s wade in deeper
Chasing flickering orb into the dark hollow
Where it goes let us follow

Let your gaze fall upon me
And turn this moment into forever
Coz I find the galaxies in your eyes
And forever starts today!

~ © John Acéx

You and I

Who could tell, that this could work out

From the sparks of our friendship

Lit the flame of our love

It’s heat unbearable to ice

It’s light evident to even the blind.

’em haters can’t stand us together

I care less because we’re perfect together

Never leave you, be yours forever

Be by your side in every endeavour

Grant you every favour,

Perhaps be your saviour!

~ © John Acéx