Can someone please turn off my mind? I'm trapped inside myself.
You stole our hopes
corrupted our minds
and killed our dreams
Now we are a plague
to the same society
that enslaved us
All our efforts at
seeking freedom is
being tagged a crime
But maybe a little
breaking of your laws
and aborminating sins
is what it will take
to feel alive, again
~ © John Acéx
Now that we’re apart
It’s the end of our world
Our little heaven is in ashes
And it was both our faults
Guessing we loved wrong
We failed to distinguish
Between what we wanted
And definitely what we needed
We meddled in this
And now it’s too much to bare
It wasn’t actually love
Just a satisfaction of desire
can’t keep up with the deceit
Saying that we love each other
But only amplifying the hurt
We both deserve better
~ © John Acéx
The constant drives to the bar
To drain myself in the scorching liquor
To target the pain you caused me
The endless drives to the dump you fall asleep on
To pick your wasted self from the floots
The countless men
that call you in the middle of the night
You giggle yourself throughout the conversations
Promising them a good time with you
Suddenly, the bed becomes empty
Only to realize it’s one of the many nights
I twist and d bed silently and keenly
Listening…tic toc tic toc goes the clock
Counting, counting every second, every minute
Your body was kept on torture with men
Everytime I thought of leaving all this
Behind the pain, humiliation, shame, lies
I just couldn’t let it go
I’ve packed my bags countless times
But love and hope tied my body down
To stay with you one more time
Closing my eyes praying to this unknown God
God that heals an open wound,
3 am, I prepare myself to see your broken body
At the side of the road, wasted
But every time I’ve witness that
I’ve realized it’s love that draws me back to you
Then I realize that alcohol heals all wounds
My drink was a best friend
That made everything in life seem easy
And drowns itself in my sorrows
Just to forget you! The constant drives to the bar
To drain myself in the scorching liquor
To target the pain you caused me
The endless drives to the dump you fall asleep on
To pick your wasted self from the floots
The countless men
that call you in the middle of the night
You giggle yourself throughout the conversations
Promising them a good time with you
Suddenly, the bed becomes empty
Only to realize it’s one of the many nights
I twist and turn in the empty bed
I walk with hopeless footsteps towards the window,
Footsteps that are terrified
To know the damn ugly truth, but try to accept it
I watch your tired shadow entering the car
And tears fight back in my eyes
I lay myself in bed silently and keenly
Listening…tic toc tic toc goes the clock
Counting, counting every second, every minute
Your body was kept on torture with men
Everytime I thought of leaving all this
Behind the pain, humiliation, shame, lies
I just couldn’t let it go
I’ve packed my bags countless times
But love and hope tied my body down
To stay with you one more time
Closing my eyes praying to this unknown God
God that heals an open wound,
3 am, I prepare myself to see your broken body
At the side of the road, wasted
But every time I’ve witness that
I’ve realized it’s love that draws me back to you
Then I realize that alcohol heals all wounds
My drink was a best friend
That made everything in life seem easy
And drowns itself in my sorrows
Just to forget you!
~ © Calvin Alistar
If I could turn back time
Then I’d make it all better
I’m burning with remorse
But now we stuck in the pain
Like time went all frozen
Hurting in the silence
Not finding the missing pieces
But hoping to get out of this!
~ © John Acéx
This wasn’t built to last,
Holding on to what we never had;
It’s time we move on.
Hoping you’ll find him
He, that’ll love you better
One you won’t have to change,
And save us both the heart aches.
~ © John Acéx
Saw you with him
Knew I’d died within
It’s clear you moved on
How he made you smile,
Perhaps he’s a better mate
And with a shady grin
I try to hide my anguish
But I know the truth,
I was happier with you!
~ © John Acéx
Saying goodbye was hard
Letting you go was hell
Tried to be alright without you,
But I seemingly can’t.
Hoping you’re doing fine
But praying you recall
All the good times we had
The memories and the polaroids;
And realize that I’m the one,
The one who cared enough!
~ © John Acéx
